I am torn.
What is a parent to do?
There are no good options here for us trying to love 2 children, one with severe mental illness. I have 2 children. I love 2 children.
Mental illness destroys families.
It does it every day.
Mental illness kills dreams.
It does it every day.
Mental illness is NOT fair.
I see that every day.
Mental illness kills people
My son, now 18, legally and adult, has been plagued with multiple and untreatable mental illness all his life. That, in turn, means our family has lived in almost constant chaos, uncertainty and hell for that entire time as well. As his parents, my husband and I know we have to care for him, and lovingly do so. When stable he is a sweet, loving, caring boy. Unfortunately the stability never lasts long. His mood swings are constant, his rages frequent, the stress and heartache it causes us all is never-ending. The thing is….it’s not his fault. He can’t help how he acts. And HE hates his behavior and actions worse than anyone.
He is tortured by himself.
We are at the point now that our daughter, his sister, is suffering. Suffering. Struggling. Angry. Resentful.
Angry she doesn’t have a normal brother.
Angry she doesn’t have a normal family.
Angry friends can’t come over because her brother is raging or unstable.
Angry at life.
I don’t blame her.
She doesn’t deserve this either.
We are now faced with “its him or me”
She says….” it’s him or me”
put him out, send him away, call the cops, or I am leaving, she’s had it, we all have.
I can’t blame her.
She deserves peace.
She can’t find it here.
But, where can we send him? He hasn’t broken any laws. He can’t support himself. He is still in school. He is unstable. The hospitals have no beds.
There is no good option.
He is our child, a lovely boy, the real boy is the most loving child you could ever meet. If we can just get him stable. If we can find the right mix of medication. If
But, when unstable,he is someone else. Someone no one likes. Someone who drives everyone away.
It’s not his fault. His mind is the enemy.
Mental illness kills, destroys, leaves a path of destruction.
It’s not fair
** I realize mental illness does not affect all victims this way, this is OUR experience. Many people with mental illness are treated successfully and enjoy life without complications.